Rising In Love

bettyWith all your senses fall in love once more…well to fall in love once more, one needs to fall in love and then fall out.

How does one know when it is over?

Maybe when we feel more in love with our memories than with the person standing in front of us? apparently something can happen inside you …it can just happen somehow…maybe like magic, you think that you’ve had enough, and that the way the two of you haven for a really long time is no longer worth the effort. Does that sound familiar?

Some how what Ben Davis Sr. Said seems to make sense, falling in love is sudden, easy and fun. Its like a child going down a playground slide, while falling out of love is slow, difficult and painful, it is like watching a child die of cancer.

The human race tends to remember the abuses to which it has been subjected rather than the endearments. What’s left of the kisses? But wounds however leave scars, and the scars have the strange power to remind us that our past is real. All them same, scars are not injuries, a scar is a healing, it makes whole.

Falling in love is easy; falling in love with same person repeatedly is extraordinary. Actually somewhere maybe falling in love is about acknowledging the person who makes us feel worthy about ourselves..? So our self worth falls, we fall out of love…? Could that be it?

Maybe we our task is not seek love, but seek and dissolve the barriers within us that we have erected against love…? we are so taken up with finding, being, staying and sustaining love we seem to have forgotten the one person who we need to love first… ourselves… still worse when we do, we label it selfish, narcissism and whip ourselves no end.

Most relationships seem to hit that stalemate not at the seven year itch.. as glorified but a little later. So what happens to that great love, it should have evolved from romantic lust to an sustaining enduring companionship… the flowers should have been replaced by cauliflower pickle.

Somewhere my generation was brought up on harshness, be it verbal or physical, spare the rod and spoil the child was at its peak just beginning wan. To be kind to myself is something I had to learn, and have still to learn. Letting go of harsh judgements and self hatred has been such a tough journey.

I figured that I had decreed that fat, scared, and no awards or plaque to flaunt I was definitely not lovable. So even if someone did say anything affectionate I was sceptic.

An affirmation that helped me was, “I love and accept myself just the way I am.” Find my peace.

As I began to accept myself, and even love myself I found that anguish and emotional suffering were only warnings that I was living against my own truth, this I know today as Authenticity.  I realize each person has their own pace and space, and so do I, this is called Respect. I learnt to accept myself and where I am, without wanting to change people or my surrounding, everything was an invitation to grow, maybe this is Maturity. As I began to love myself, I understood that at any circumstance, I am in the right place at the right time and everything happens at the right moment. This I realize is self Confidence. Somewhere since I did not seek approval, or did not need targets to be loved, work at my pace, doing things that give me joy, this keeps my life exceedingly Simple. As my love and respect for myself grew, I find myself free of anything that is not good for my health, be it food, people, things, situations or anything that drew me away from authentic-self. Once upon a time I thought this was ego and narcissism, but today I know it Love Of Oneself. As I began to love myself, the need to be always right is gone, interestingly I find, I am wrong less of the time. This I discover is Modesty. As I learn to love myself, I learnt to forgive myself, I’m

nanowrmo

this article is an excerpt from my NANOWRMO writing.

learning to stop living in the past, or worrying about the future, the moment seems to so happening I can live each day, and I find my life getting better every way, I call it Fulfilment. As I  learn to love myself I realize my mind can disturb me and it me sick, it give be critical, unforgiving, by as I learn to connect it my heart, my mind became an valuable ally. This connect is the Wisdom of the Heart.  Confrontations, arguments, or problems don’t seem to loom like boogie men.  There is tremendous strength and creativity happening in a still mind; I said still mind and not stagnant mind. Today I know  This Is Life…. this is love… this lightens the soul.

Indispire 123 prompt With All Your Senses  Fall In Love…..One More Time, Prompt by Arunkumar  who blogs at http://www.urgid.com
 

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3 Comments (+add yours?)

  1. Anupam Patra
    Jul 02, 2016 @ 03:32:19

    This is a beautiful post Parwati. It is inspiring the way you’ve taken it from loving others to loving ourselves as the way to peace. I agree. Learning the art of loving ourselves solves too many problems, an art that has always eluded me. Anyways, this was one heck of an inspiring write up. This indeed lightens the spirit.

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  2. Durga Prasad Dash
    Jul 02, 2016 @ 10:29:52

    I think loving others starts from loving oneself. Loving and accepting oneself is the starting point of all progress

    Reply

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